Dear Heart & Mind of mine,
There’s something about seeing you both on paper that makes so many of these thoughts and feelings… feel so real. And to be honest, it’s becoming so wonderful o just spend time with you. To just pause for a moment in my day and take stock of it all or to just breathe away from it all. Sometimes it’s just brilliant, connecting all the dots and sometimes it’s overwhelming trying even to find the dots.. but it’s always worth it. Sometimes it feel like I’m watching a screen projector, splashing all this information on a blank canvas, where I can zoom out for just a moment and see some of the picture just a little clearer. I have to say it’s so nice that the world we live in feels like it’s moving in a direction to understand you both better as well as help us to take better care of you both.
I saw a small trend where people thanked their bodies for all it’s gotten through and I thought it was only right to thank you both. Thank you Heart & Mind, I know, at time, it’s not easy being you (and at times it’s a total breeze for you). You have witnessed it all and, at times, you’ve done what you thought was best to keep me safe. Through the anxiety, pain, fear and self-doubt, the episodes of depression, through heartbreak, grief, loss and therapy as well as through the lessons and changes, triumph, adventure, discovery, enjoyment and love, warmth, growth and fulfilment. Over time we’ve learned to cope, survive and thrive, all whilst we do our very best to understand the world around me. You’ve both gotten into a few tug-of-war rounds throughout the years, but I learn so much from those inner battles. Thanks, Heart & Mind, you’re always busy processing and building a picture or a story for me to make sense of. You’ve done such a great job so far with the tools you’ve had. We really have had and will have many lessons still but I promise to try my best to be patient as we pick up new tools along the way.
I’ve often misunderstood the way you work but today I’m so grateful for the Heart & Mind I have