So scary, dark and uncertain can be the journey within myself. Flashes of lights here in there, surprises, good and bad at every corner.
The last 6 months have been hard, probably between the hardest. Realizing that my life is not as expected, I am, not as expected; and that is so difficult to accept. Too much uncertain around me, to not feel like a failure too many things I do not recognize I struggle to embrace.
Trying to not make too much noise when inside I am raging…
Why I can’t stand feeling vulnerable? Why so much fear to fully express myself? What am I protecting myself from?
Thorough therapy I am now learning to put my shield down, so much of me have been neglected that I want to reconquer. Embracing vulnerability has opened new doors within myself, it is like exploring uncharted waters, forgotten territories. I am finally on an adventure where uncertainty does not feel so painful… I am looking forward to see what else is in me to explore.