Is anyone ever listening? I mean really listening, not just the occasional perfunctory nod or sound?
Can you hear me? Do you hear me? Do you want to hear me, and I mean really hear me? Am I allowed to be truly heard.
Does anyone want to really hear anyone?
And just listen, really listen
And just hear, really hear
Don’t say the thing you think I want to hear and let’s not perform in that auto-pilot manner.
I’m not asking for solutions if that’s what you think I want
Is that what was said? Or did you hear what you wanted to hear?
Don’t tell me what to do, when you have not heard me
Don’t tell me what I’m thinking when you talk over me
Don’t start that game of tennis we often call a conversation.
I pour my heart out, it took a lot. You bat back at me immediately with a version of a similar story that happened to you once.
It stops me in my tracks. Is that code for empathy? Or were you just dying to tell your own story, it shows you are supportive, so you tell yourself.
Fifteen love to you all the way to game, set, and match because I’m now shut down with the familiar weight of not being heard, not being seen. I’m just invisible me.
Let my words pierce through you
Let it be awkward
Let it be still
Let it sit in between us, heavy in the air. Honest and pure.
Let it, if you will.
Don’t hear the words that I never spoke hang over us.
Let the language I speak be the same as yours.
It might get uncomfortable but it will always be true
No filter, no boundaries
Yet sensitive, not unkind
Trust that it will always come from my place of love. For you.
Let me speak my truth, let me be true to me cos it means being true to you too.
Can you handle it? Don’t judge me, don’t stifle me.
I need to be me. I need to set me free.
Can you see that? Can you see me?
Can you be that? Can we speak freely.
Feel safe with me. Feel the growth within.
Let our truth set us free. There is no other way to live for me.
I’m supposed to be she, I’m supposed to live that dream.
And suddenly I cannot breathe.
My safe place is gone. I’m in freefall.
So f*ck you all.
Hear my truth. Oh see now how I rise.
