Cleo Sols’ “heart full of love” on repeat
For days….before I meet your beautiful face
My perfect 5’9 melts into your arms
And it feels like stars have finally aligned

Am standing solo in the middle of my living room
Floating in the feeling of you
Groundless and ceilingless
Struggling to take deep breaths
searching for stillness in my heart
It’s the longest 20 minutes of my life
“My baby” you say when we make love
It means everything
And I respond with silence
Scared to ruin the energy in the room with words

…I can’t bare the coldness of your message
So I pretend to be cool
I give you my rehearsed laugh And say all the right words
Dress to impress
And you fall for it
And I feel cheap
I get sky high that night and It works
I almost forget you until 201

I took my decorations off of you
And you went back to being ordinary
I went as far as adding you
To Ford mondeo category,
Took a step back to evaluate
And Girl realised
You’re just another “James”
Just like the rest of them
Tuna, spliff, bath & chicken
2 pairs of socks
All on repeat

Maybe it was me that Saturday
Scared to let my guard down
your safety didn’t feel safe anymore
You just liked the meaning of my words
I needed you to set the stage
For me to dance on
Not give me an experience of evaporated magic
After Disconnected f**k…

I could of been the feeling After cold shower
The lasting touch,
The coolest forever girl to unpick life with

You were my dream come true, my rainbow, my fireworks…

You were also the one who broke my Heart

LL